so sorry
I am so sorry I have never been good enough for you. I am so sorry that the only one who ever made you proud ran away because she was too fucked in the head to keep up. I held up my end of the deal. I tried being better, I tried making the relationship not as awkward. I tried ignoring the fucked up past but it’s you who can’t seem to get past it. So as the days pass, the tension rises, the awkward silences become more frequent. Until you burst on the only person that you ever speak your mind to. The one who always puts up with your bull shit. The one who has to relay the messages of anger and frustration because you are too small to stand up for yourself. The one who deserves so much more but here she is, right by your side. I will be so much better. I will be my own person and I will never again be a burden on anyone else. I am so sorry I have never been good enough for you.
